I have something big against you..and

don't know how else to say but don't like the mixed messages which are fine.  I'm just not a happy person for other reasons, I know.  What was it..ah, yes, you can't tell people they can't do things like crying and sobbing but not in an annoying way.., feel physical affection I know.  Isn't that unhealthy and make you want to get stimulated?  What are you a robot?  I don't like massages.  I can't even believe in my dreams.  I hit my head and haven't had a good 1 in a long time.  Then, what boiled me in water was that she thinks girls with a dad born @ 1950 are perverts and don't deserve to feel anything, like physical affection.  I'm not someone who halts history for it, though.  Why was I mad?  Because I think it was just @ me for my dad being born in 1950 .. my race ..