Sunday, August 11, 2013
Would you enjoy
most of your day feeling insulted by Ellen DeGeneres when people are testing you for being squeamish, like they're bad but are like being racist and saying you "messed up" all the time?
Did you know
people are actually threatening me to ^fall^ for Ellen's supposed ****ness? What ****ness?
JUST LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE
I don't care how safe you feel, you're all being bad to me.
My parents keep sending secret messages on the side, like Ellen says I can't do this, I'm not something forever. Ellen seems to do it. You can't give me attention just so you can be mean to me most of the time. No one in the world gives a care @ your ^^wife^^ "Portia.."
My parents keep sending secret messages on the side, like Ellen says I can't do this, I'm not something forever. Ellen seems to do it. You can't give me attention just so you can be mean to me most of the time. No one in the world gives a care @ your ^^wife^^ "Portia.."
Dream
We were visiting my aunt, and there were more people there. We had to move out to a "kitchen" rather a different place because people we were with might attack. A black girl I knew disappeared, but I saw her butt hanging out a big apartment in a city area of New Orleans. I was upset, my brother left us all, probably headed out somewhere else in the U.S. I was in a van with my parents. Suddenly, my aunt was there. I kept asking, "What about [little brother]"? I just didn't want him caught! We arrived at a place that looked like an office, a huge library in the middle of where we were staying. I think I wanted to meet Ellen, maybe it was a thing that would stretch out more than 1 little meet and skedaddle.
How I Feel
Tired, moved bw bed and couch a lot, felt a little like throwing up, again, like that hurling feel. Took a shower so feel cool. Need to recline, again. I did eat like 3 or 4 more tacos in the AM hours.
So, I noticed..
Ellen started out kinda simple. Most babies start of detailed. Like she seemed to have simple nails. Nell Burton seems to have flat-shaped toes|toenails, like a Jew, too. So, did you see Ellen's nails? I just now noticed. They were longer and seemed more like mine as an infant. Her nails seem plastered to her fingers. So cute! She has a new look, now, and she probably won't like grow them out again, necessarily. I think she was worried they'd just keep getting shorter, though. My nails after that were pretty square. I might have a lot of good attributes. I'm not quite sure what to do for my hands. They used to be short but not bit. I guess I'm getting uesd to them being more like the nails on a doll than a human being. I always wear nail polish.
I had to do it, again..
..I realized we over objectify young girls|tween girls today and that might make them feel ar*****.
Why I Have To
M*********. Well, I don't, but people are afraid to get close to me and get weird thoughts. I don't do it much, hadn't since the Tinkerbell bedspread. Had a hard day partly but not much. I saw a girl outside that made me think to tell my brother and mom something I said involving my brother. She had bright honey hair and a round-ish head, thick-looking.. I don't know if it's my generation or what, but I was just feeling like I couldn't relax. It may not be better than having a little drink.
Awake
Slept a little over an hour. Just had 3 more tacos. Having an Oreo shake..cookies and creme and want cookies.
My right ear feels like sensitive on the inside, loud noise in the bathroom at the food court at the mall. Every time I try to settle, something happens in Orlando. I have a right to live here and go about my community. Also, you "can't leave.." What p.o.s. Whoever had the umph to say that has never contributed anything to anyone in this city because they don't me, you are not whiter, you are just a nigger.
My right ear feels like sensitive on the inside, loud noise in the bathroom at the food court at the mall. Every time I try to settle, something happens in Orlando. I have a right to live here and go about my community. Also, you "can't leave.." What p.o.s. Whoever had the umph to say that has never contributed anything to anyone in this city because they don't me, you are not whiter, you are just a nigger.
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